I could really use a crystal ball or an ouija board or something. gossh my mind is full of mengarut stuff. it's not healthy you noe. Nowdays, me and my girls were talking a lot about the future. Mostly about soulmates and stuff. Not that i really bother about this but when everybody keeps talking about it, it got me thinking about the future too. Im that type of person that always go with the flow but going with the flow is not enough right? I gotta have some plans too. Ok, im just 19 but still..
Am I gonna be happy?
Am I going to be succesful?
If im gone, will i be missed?
Did I ever touch people's life?
HAHA psycho jap. but yeah that's what i'm thinking rite now.
hello everybody. At last! i got some real good time at my room. Sitting in front of my lappie while eating maggie and listening to my playlist. ooohh Heaven! i noe it feels kinda lifeless but im loving it. Sometimes, i just wanna sit in my room and do nothing. Just having some "me" time. ahhh...okay "me" time sounds a lil bit too erk wrong. hehe
Went to Penang last week! weee! sampai jugak ke Penang ye. it was a really unexpected trip though. The girls were stuck at Sungai Petani and there come me and Fana to the rescue. Long story short last-last sampai Penang! :D
A very tiring and adventurous trip although dapat singgah pantai kejap je. Looking forward to go there again with ma girls and maybe with Damansara peeps. Seriously best!
oh ohh! i drove from Penang to Perlis using manual Viva ok. hahaha show off jap :p
-helped Ana to move her things into her new college
-eat Laksa at Kuala Perlis
-watch the beautiful sunset with the girls
-brunch at Changloon
-went Alor Setar to watch movie
sadly, we didnt manage to watch the movie Karak coz by the time the movie ends we dont think that we can get back to UiTM on time.
but one thing for sure, driving from Kedah to Perlis at night is supeeerrr scaryyy. ok maybe im just too paranoid kot but jalan raya there sangat gelap. I have to turn on the spotlight the whole journey baru boleh nampak benda kuning kecik-kecik dekat jalan tu :O
and the best part was, we got lost! HAHAH just before we got lost, ada kereta kuning passed our car and before this the car was like playing with the lights. macam err kacau je. Luckily its not the yellow Volkswagen. Imagine driving in the dark road, with no signboards or road lamps and theres only one car there. Our car la in this story kan hahah
thank god we arrived back safely. and thank god jugak i didnt felt asleep while driving. heheh the girls were kinda panic already. :p
anyways its been a great weekend. Im really gonna miss Ana's car since next week the car had to be send back to KL :(
it's been a very random weekend and enjoying it :D
i still remember how moody and depress I was on Monday till Thursday hahah
ps: i've been thinking and having a lot of dreams about death lately. Is that normal? hmm
Im sad. like really-really sad. its been a while since i felt this way but this time it's a whole different thing. I cried whenever im alone in my room and i think if someone poke me on the shoulder or just showing sympathy look at me, i would burst into tears. yes call me a cry baby but i'm so not ready for this semester.
the fact that i lost my besty/roomate is really heartbreaking. maybe people would say "hey suck it up,move on.thats life" or whatever to me but i can't accept the changes in my room. knowing that there is someone who will replace her is so urgh depressing! i hate being lonely especially when im far from my family and friends and the last thing i needed is unwanted changes that my mind hasn't prepare for it.
this sem sangat lain. everybody get different room and roomates, my schedule is freaking pack. morning classes till night. i'll be alone taking arabic classes while my friends are taking Mandarin,hate being far away from my friends and Haziq, friendship dramas and so on.. i feel soo tired. And guess what, all these things make me wanna go home and hug my loved ones so bad. Even now im getting homesick. Im not that type of person who get homesick that soon. sigh so not me.
but i think this is just a phase. im mentally not prepared for this and because of this i have a really bad emotional breakdown hahah. gila lah mimi.
i hope everything is going to be alright. There is always the first time for everything.